Michael Jackson dead at 50 after cardiac arrest

http://edition.cnn.com/2009/SHOWBIZ/Music/06/25/michael.jackson/index.html?iref=mpstoryview <- news from CNN

realllyyyy???

wow this news shocked me as it was the first thing to pop up on my news feed on my igoogle...

the protest in Iran, more death in Iraq, Pakistan.. hey even politicians that cheat... really it doesn't suprise me at all.. what's new.. i have always been pessimistic of human nature..

but MJ??? you would think he would live forever... that he was beyond death..

the most recognisable musical figure of 'my time' or at least I grew up with his music..

life has always been fleeting.. we quote the temporary-ness of time and its fragility all the time.. about living life to the fullest, about having no regrets, about treating yourself well..

we say things like money and fame doesn't buy you happiness... and true friends are hard to find..

also true talent and the ability to connect.. now known as the X factor.. is also rare..

I guess MJ embodies all the good and the bad examples of what life holds..

and when you are gone- your memory is the only real legacy you leave behind and eventually that also fades away..i guess it ties back with my 'theory' on why religion and the concept of everlasting life after death is so alluring.. because if this short, brutal life that we live.. this being just all that there is.. is too sad and wasteful to phantom.

oh my god.. westlife.. 4 times??

i am listening to the 4th loop of my westlife greatest hits CD.. huh.. i like westlife.. yup it is a little known fact about me that i like boybands and bubble gum pop.. why not.. they are catchy.. easy to sing along and easy on the ears...

i came home and attemnpted to finish one of my accounting assignment. Again, I am not very bright so i needed more time that most people i guess.. uurrrgghh.. so now that i have finish and submitted in online i reliase that this is the 4th loop ooooooooooooo.. so i have been sitting, typing for the last 4 hours??


so now i am back on track, with 1 more assignment due for June to go.. fffuuu... i really hope i pass this crazy MBA thingee.. the amount of time and $$ i am spending on it is amazing.. i have never studied so much!! even in high school and college.. oohh.. that't what got me into this crappy situation to start with..not studying seriously.. so boys and girls.. if you are still in school- believe me.. it pays to do well..i think i am getting to an age that i can give this advise.. u will regret it when you don't study hard... hahaha


mmm... most of my fav westlife songs are because i loved the original version already.. angel, home, the rose.. their original.. mm.. maybe flying w/o wings, swear it again and what makes a man i guess.. but today i notice 'love takes two' is pretty good... never gave it much notice..



love takes two.. exactly.. it just can't be one person trying to make it work...

dun you just hate things that depands on others? if only man is an island.. only you and you only are respondsible for all your actions, failure or success.. stupidity or idiocracies..

that will be my idea of a prefect world.. damn.. i think i am developing signs of being a crazy, lonely cat lady..or a hermit without the cat.. hahaha..

i need to go out more..

home

i am feeling goooddd... last week i was feeling really stressed.. puuhhhh.. things were just building up and getting no where.. and like the stages of how we deal with grief or loss etc it is always:

1. denial
2. anger
3. bargaining
4. depression

and finally

5. acceptance..

don't believe me? then u haven't been watching much medical sitcoms on TV.. it even has a name Kübler-Ross model.

so.. what grief does a person like me have? daily small stuff, work, bf, studies.. feels like i am in college again.. maybe that is why i have a outbreak of pimples recently..

second rush of youthhh.. hahaha

but now i am really looking forward to go home and relax.. see familiar faces, eat familiar food.. work as little as possible and chill..

homesick.. maybe.. feeling worn out.. yup...